For those that do not know...and I know there are a lot, Terry & I have been trying to conceive. With Terry in Kidney failure we want to start our family now. Between his health and my lack of ovulations, we have not had an easy time. So we have been seeing a fertility specialist for about a year. Today I had my baseline sonograham done and today start a fertility drug called clomid. Don't worry it won't make me have triplets or more, there is a increase chance of having twins but that is it.
This past month I really thought I was pregnant with out having to go through the specialist, but was not. It is so disappointing when you think you are and just bringing a life into this world and then the huge let down when you are not...I know everyone says you are young, it will happen with time. I am going to be 32 this year, I don't feel any younger and with Terry's health...two years down the road he will be going for a transplant etc...and well my feeling is if we don't start now we will never have kids together.
Yes there is Terry's son Zachery, who I love as my own, but that still does not change us wanting a family together, children we raise as full time parents, not just every other weekend.
I know I sound bitter and venting, but it helps to get it out. Terry and I have each other and if it comes down too it that is all we need. We don't have the funds to adopt nor go any further with fertility treatment then what we are. So if this does not work then it is in God's hands!
Okay well I just had to get that out of me, it is always better to get it out then keep it in.
Now that my head hurts...I need to lay down for a bit...
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Well written article.
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